Where do I start? Oh, right….Happy Valentines day! I’ll be
honest, I’ve never been much of a fan of this day, not because I don’t like the
day, I think it’s precious – and come on everything is pink so…hello FAVE….but
I’ve just never had much to celebrate on this joyous day. I know, I know…I
should start singing Jesus loves me and then I’ll be ok with the fact that on
this day I get to be even more aware that I am single. Have you tried that? Did
it work? I think NOT! Ha As we speak, or type, I am in Denver, Colorado
awaiting the arrival of my lovers, Brittany, Dianna, and Brent. Alone. On
Valentines day. Now, before this pity party goes any further, I just wanted to
point out I just spent the last 2 hours watching the ever-so-handsome Channing
Tatum work his beautiful-gift-from-God magic across the movie screen in “The
Vow.” I would like to take this opportunity to praise Jesus in his ability to
make such a wonderful, talented…. actor. I digress.
As I walked into the movie,
I quickly realized I was going to be the only person that did not have a date
in this movie. However, as the movie played I realized what it means to truly
be in love with someone. To love so strongly you are willing fight no matter
what may hinder your path. For the first time, I can honestly say that I am
happy to wait for that. Some of you may think, yeah, well you intentionally are
not dating for a year…so duh you are waiting. Well, yes, but I have never
really been content with that decision. Yes, I know I am growing with every day
that passes. But, something just clicked. I’m not waiting for some person who
is just good enough; I’m waiting for him. The one. Whoa, that is weird. Not
only am I waiting for him, I am okay, content, and happy to wait. Because who
God has for me, is the best, perfect, mine. Not some mediocre, I’ll-
take-you-cause-I’m-bored “love”. And on the other end of that journey, I may
not be able to say a lot of things, but I can say to him, “ I am yours.” In the
last 30 minutes, I have finally had a peace of this decision come over me, in
knowing that this decision is going to be worth it. For now, it is Jesus and I.
How awesome is that? Jesus is waiting with me. I am not waiting alone, and I
never have to again. I have spend roughly 24.93841 years of my life in search
of something I could never find. With this overwhelming peace comes surrender,
and I know that I do not have to worry because whoever he is, wherever he is
(God help his soul!), God has him for me. For me! Some may call this a
revelation, an epiphany, or simply say, ”Duh, Kristi, how did you not know
this,” but you have no idea how it feels to be at peace with this situation God
has given me. Crazy – this would happen on Valentines Day! So thankful for a
Valentines Day where I do not have to complain but wait patiently in hopes for
the future! WHOO HOO!
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